Diary of a Former NFL Cheerleader-Patience

Everyone has a weakness and mine is PATIENCE...  My late, wise Mother used to say- "Patience is a virtue Annmarie".  Well, in these times, in this part of my life it would really be handy.  Does anyone have any suggestions?

I have just moved into my new house with my 12 year-old son.  I am newly divorced and for some reason I am slowly losing friends.  I guess they can not handle my new life, I think they are jealous.  But I am also finding myself alone more than ever. 

I used to think it was my son, my ex, my Father but now I'm realizing - I need to have patience with myself.  I need to heal, I need to rest and I'm feeling guilty about it.  

So I realized that I am not where I wan't to be in life because of my patience level, In business I give up faster with bosses, I guess some would say I'm impulsive because I am so impatient. With friends and family I will be short, quick to lose my temper and not good at forgiving.  Pretty much, you cross me once and you will not get a second chance.

Any suggestions?  

Guess I'll have to wait for the answer- and be patient....